[WARNING: IF YOU DO NOT LIKE READING LOADS OF PARAGRAPHS, THIS ISN'T THE PLACE TO BE LOOKING BUT IF YOU'RE CURIOUS TO SEE MY HISTORY, BE MY GUESTT!! <33]
2015 - someone had told me about this game via twitter, and I first made my account on the 5th/11/15 + I had some knowledge about the game thanks to playing transformice + I met my first few friends,
@Aesthetic, Bigrasengan (we were soulmates WAY BACK) and a few others too, I may have slightly forgotten.
2015 - 2016 - Ah, my memory is quite vague but all I know was that I acted really cringey in this time period (it was like a phase???), I was so obsessed with saying the words 'bruh' and 'noice', as well as the most PAINFUL face 'XD'. Oh + also this is when I first found out about the existence of helpers, I was asking a few people about it, (I was curious) if I could apply and if it was still open; I managed to pass through my first application (the EN community manager at the time was fours), and soon I became a helper but that didn't even last a week because of stupid stunt I decided to pull, which was bragging about my role and at the time I didn't know this was considered a bad thing, I ended up being fired two days after and it took me a while to find out the reason for this, but now I'm VERY weary that 'bragging' doesn't gain you any bonus marks at all, it just shows how low you are and it doesn't look good as a staff member, believe me (and I regret it deeply).
(I don't remember the year or date, aaahh)
Sooo after learning from my mistake, I decided to apply again as an applicant but I ended up losing hope at this point since I really messed up my chance, and I ended up leaving spoons.
(I think I applied a third time, leaving again but my memories are really jumbled up and I wasn't focussing too much on the dates)
LATE 2016 - 2017 - I APPLIED AGAIN, and this time I didn't want to give up on trying as an applicant again, this lasted much longer than any other one too, I had gained a lot of friendships in TG as well as enjoying the company of others, I knew a few who were there at the time but they may have forgotten about this, and a few who have gone inactive. Then another disaster happened and I was hit with a mental breakdown because of school, my lack of revision and concentration, because I knew how worse this was becoming for me, I ended up leaving TG and miceforce completely; Bellamy had suddenly whispered to me about the sudden departure, a lot of the members being concerned, I ended up telling her to tell them not to worry about me and that I would return eventually, at this point it was really heart breaking for me, leaving something that I had grown into... and this time I tried to boycott the game overall, these overwhelming feelings of jealousy and upset kind of tore me a part and I thought I would never be something like this again...
SUMMER 2017 - (around when I was going to start work experience) After a few long months away I returned back to miceforce and discord, feeling more relaxed and relieved with myself, more content and less of those negative feelings I had once pursued, and during this time I had met some new players and I know the names of those who I had seen the first time,
@Liuin
@Azrael (AKA yassir, I ended up having some crush on him and I'm actually sorry that kind of happened, it made me too OBSSESSED and I shouldn't have been, but now this 'crush' no longer exists, I finally managed to move on thanks to him even though I never thought I would, I'm glad we're still friends and nothing has changed too much; OH and also, remember when you sang 'demons' in the vc??? omg I still haven't forgotten this at all, and when your voice went really high pitched at 'IT'S WHERE MY DEMONS HIDE' and also the comments you made when I was singing it instead, and I kept hearing you talking about 'having babies', do you remember??? (
@Kiokii,
@Invalnorious ( we never really 'talked' but we were once in the vc, and I was actually surprised when I heard your voice, I ended up making a gender 'assumption' because of your profile picture, I'M SORRY ABOUT THAT OH GOD (You may not remember this though, I can't blame you))
@Krumplibogar (The first time we met each other, I swear to god this was one of the most strangest encounters, I THINK HE WAS MIMICKING ME TOO IN THE VC ONCE LOL, I FOUND IT TOO FUNNY. After a while we soon adjusted and we managed to become friends, we were soulmates too but not on a personal level, and we often talked in the vc, usually accompanied by yassir but not constantly as well as other members too) + I had met up with
@Aesthetic again, at first we talked normally but then I decided to drift away slightly, I guess I shouldn't have done so, a friend wouldn't but I didn't mean this as a way to say that I 'didn't care', I care too much sometimes and if someone's issues are far too deep then it ends up this way but I did still talk to them, just not as close as we used to be; Again, I'm sorry about what happened in the past with us and I'm glad we managed to put it aside, I'm sorry that you had to leave here but I hope you find yourself a good life and that you take care of yourself too, take care. ANYWAY BACK ON TOPIC, I also had an encounter with
@Menet in the vc (I love your voice + your laugh) and yassir was in there too. The conversation that had happened was so funny , I don't remember it too well but I kept hearing about yassir asking him if he wanted to have babies or something (I said this in the paragraph above,) and the other stuff that was happening.
---and soon I re-joined TG again, the whole system had been revamped and it was totally different than how it used to be since my first interview, whereby we had to join the server and answer the question presented in DMs by a staff member (helpers, moderators ect..) (I got convinced to join again by Josho who's now known as
@Tama and I felt the pressure to do so..), and I managed to get through, I was re-encountered by some who I knew before like
G
@Grandpiano,
@Chemicals (I'm so proud of you and how you managed to get to where you are now, you honestly deserve it!),
@Suiciding as well so many who greeted me with a load of welcomes!! I managed to fit in quite quickly and things actually felt so different again as I wasn't feeling so put down and I felt I stood a chance if I tried hard enough, around this time I found out about fours retiring, which was deeply saddening, they had done a lot for the community but I hope that whatever they're doing now that they'll manage to succeed through it!
I also met many others in TG too such as,
@Chickeb,
@Lpsfo (LP OR LPS) (We've had an encounter before too, but it's really hazy),
@Mireli (Mir),
@Chaosis (CHAOO),
@Sweetvssour,
@Vegitarian,
@Doormat (I knew them before joining TG but I thought I'd put them here) and I might've forgotten a few!
Moving onwards another tragedy struck and I ended up in a mental breakdown again, but less severe, with the same reason as above but my time in TG was short lived, and I left again since Year 11 turned out to be even busier than I expected in the first place and I really need to get the grades , I guess you could say that I rushed straight in without knowing the consequences and I ended up repeating the same mistake, (if you've read Macbeth and noticed how King Duncan had misplaced his trust in the traitor MacDonald and then puts his trust in Macbeth, only to be backstabbed again (he was murdered violently because of Macbeth's mental state + desire to be king) and this time with no way to see the light, this is kind of what's happening to me but without the gruesome ending and darkness) and I had to explain to a few who had direct messaged me of what my situation was, this time I was more relaxed with myself and I hadn't boycott the game at all, I've met so many amazing people so why should I forget this place?
***OOPS I FORGOT TO ADD BOTH
@Ayaka AND
@Viktoriaa HERE, I'M SO SORRY***
If I were to pick to stay on one website, it would be here <3
Ahh and it's coming up to 2 years in November since I registered!!
oops I wrote too much again, I guess this is what happens when I have so much to share, and again, thanks for the memories.
Rita x