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Phoett

Retired ES Staff
dear x;
Am I really a whimsical girl in your eyes? I didn't think you thought that of me, but I won't blame you either. I still miss you like the first day, and although I told you that I hated you, I was hurt, I was in pain ... I still want you back, but there are times when I start to think, what if you don't? What if you no longer need me, nor do I need you? Maybe you're right, I just want to have it all, and seeing that I couldn't have you frustrates me. I don't know how stupid I was to say words that I knew I shouldn't say, but at that moment I was hurt, sad, and all the mixed feelings I had came out and ripped me apart. At that moment I had to apologize, but my pride blinded me, just as anger blinded me. So I will ask your forgiveness now. (Even if it's late), I really miss you, come back please. At least before I go.
 

Jared

Cheesoholic
x,
you are a hypocrite:)
tell people what you actually did. it wasn’t even the “joke.” and you did it for what? pure ignorance.
 

Jiane

EN Sentinel & Mapcrew
Sentinel
Map Crew
dear x,
i don’t want to talk to you anymore. you’re ignorant of me, and care a lot about yourself.
if only i wasn’t such a softie and could tell you straight up.
i wish i never invited you to those two servers either, even harder to get away from you.
 

Blade+

Shaman
dear x,
hey, i'm so sorry that happened. I wish that I could help you in some way but every time i tell you that it'll be alright you come up with something negative to say back about the situation. and while i understand that things can be rough, i just wish maybe you would look at the brighter side of it, i havent been at my best lately either, and i want to talk to you about it but that'd only make things worse. anyway, try to respond soon?
 

Yolocookies

Active Mouse
x,
Thank you for always looking out for me and pointing me into the right direction when I begin to stray off, and for scolding me when I do stupid things. ^
 

Laecot

Well-Known Mouse
X,
Bruh, no one is pure
 

Rintea

EN Sentinel & Fashion Squad Director
Sentinel
Fashion Squad
x,
never in a million years did i think you'd become the next person i'd have to force myself into not loving anymore. and what makes it 10x more painful is that i was willing to be by your side, just for you to turn around and hurt me the way you did.
 

Makkuto

Retired EN Staff
x.
you hurt me. i miss you more and more as every minute passes. you meant the world to me. how could you do that? i could never guess you'd be the one to make me feel like this. i'm shocked. i'm genuinely scared, i always will be. i hate not being able to check up on you and see how you are. i wish
it was easier. i would say i love you, but i don't. i can't. how can i love when you've just proven it's impossible? i miss you so much. i hope you're okay.
09:39.

y.
why don't you notice that what you do hurts me. it really does. i wish things never ended like that. but i guess that's another friendship down the drain. despite how many people told me you're bad for me, i still refuse to believe i let you go. it's physically painful to see you leave. i wish we could still talk. i messed up... but honestly, i don't even think you care. i'm sat here, wasting days and days crying over you. sometimes not even crying. just staring at a wall at 4am, hoping this is all a dream. i know we can never be friends how we used to again.
you made me feel like i wasn't important. only when it benefited you. but i guess that's okay. as long as i was with you, that's all that mattered to me. i just don't understand why you played me like that, played with my feelings. i'm not a toy, i'm not a game, i don't need you making me feel like i'm nothing. you hurt me & it still hurts. i still miss you though, i wish you the best. i love you so much.
12:05.
 
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Jiane

EN Sentinel & Mapcrew
Sentinel
Map Crew
Dear X, Y, and Z,
You three are so different, but yet so similar. All three of you manage to make me a little upset, even more upset, pissed, and then completely sulking. I’m so tired of this I can’t even feel angry anymore. All I really want to do now is cry, and I can’t possibly do that either.
 

Kumoh

EN Sentinel, MapCrew Dir. FunCorp & Fashion Squad
Sentinel
Map Crew
FunCorp
Fashion Squad
Dear x,
I really miss talking to you... people think that I have many people to talk with, but in reality I basically only have 1-2 people that I actually really have convos with :/ and I’m grateful for them and I know I can be awk as hell too maybe thats why people have a hard time talking with me
 

+sapphire+

EN Mod, Sentinel Director & MapCrew
Moderator
Sentinel
Map Crew
X,
I'm sorry if I hurt you. I'm sorry if I wasn't there for you. You may not know it, but you were special
 

Laecot

Well-Known Mouse
X,
You’re funny and you make me laugh daily. I wish that I could tell you that I like you. Ofc you won’t feel the same.
 

Tama

Cheesus
dear x,
just going back and remembering all the dumb shit I use to do, and the pain that I was causing myself and others.
thinking and thinking over and over about ending it all. dealing with social anxiety, fake relationships,
breakups, and toxic relationships kinda changed me, I think I've been fucked up since the beginning trying to get better.
I've gotten better but the pain is still there, me realizing how cruel the world is and me just walking by with a fake smile.
pouring my soul into my songs and previously throwing my anger and hate at everyone else. I feel horrible about it, even though
I don't care about hating, fighting, dissing, or etc. another person. Waking up in the morning just looking at the world with cold dark brown eyes,
sometimes not sleeping at all staring at the walls in my room smoking weed and vaping. I haven't been happy in a long time, even though I joke around and shit like that.
I'm not crazy but sometimes things come to an end, at the end of the day it's life.

dear k,
when i first seen you I thought you were just another person just hanging around, then months later I actually started to talk to you.
we talked more and learned things about each other, then I had the courage to ask you out at that time.
wasn't the answer I was expecting but I still loved you for being you and I accepted and supported everything that you did.
I know I confused you a lot telling you to leave and move on to find someone better, I guess I was just scared of actually falling for someone.
just wanting you to know that I truly love you PFFT THIS IS EMBARRASSING SMH.... i would type 1000000000 pages more but im tired, just know you are one of a kind
 
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Jiane

EN Sentinel & Mapcrew
Sentinel
Map Crew
Dear X,
Not again. I don’t want to, but I really can’t help it.
 

Boobear

Mouse
dear x, seeing you made me sad because i wish everything could have been better, but i am so glad you're happy! i wish we could talk again! just to clear the air or something.
 
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