e, (irl)
i missed you so fucking much. you’re like my other half, i’m so much better when you’re here with me. i’m hotheaded, and i’m a bitch sometimes, but you know the exact ways to calm me down. one of my new year’s resolutions was to be nicer to people, and honestly i didn’t think i could do it because i was just so fucking angry at the world, but then you moved back to kentucky and in a weird way you saved me from becoming someone who i’m not. i’m not a bad person, and all it took is you flying back home to realize that. you’re just so calm and kindhearted, and i’m so loud and obnoxious and it’s sometimes hard to believe we’re even related. you’re my best friend. i love you, e, stay with me.
m, (irl)
it took me awhile to realize that i don’t need anyone to make me happy and i’m a lot happier on my own, but when i’m with you i work a little differently. you’re genuinely a good guy and i have no idea how on earth you fell for someone like me? it’s kinda crazy, actually. ever since i switched schools you’ve been there for me and cared about me, and the whole time i was looking at the wrong person. instead of making me talk out my problems you waited until i was comfortable enough. instead of forcing yourself onto me you waited until i was ready. instead of getting angry at me for not being ready for a relationship you patiently waited. you’re a good guy with an amazing family and you have the cutest puppy that you love so much and i know you love me but i’m scared to fuck you up, because i do that to people sometimes. i’m selfish, i like people to myself, but with you i want nothing more than to keep you safe with the people you love. i would be so content with seeing you with someone else that you love as long as i get to see you happy, but i’m scared to be that person for you. i’ve never cared about a person so much that i’m scared to start a relationship with them even though i love them. i promise you i’ll be yours if you’ll let me, but right now i need to make sure i don’t lose myself first.