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Jiane

EN Sentinel & Mapcrew
Sentinel
Map Crew
dear x, [ irl ; long ]
hehe whoever reads this letter knows i might have a crush um why am i so giddy help-
ok, you’re hella cute, actually, and you’re sosososo much fun to be around. i’ve known you since grade 5, and i fell for you in grade 6, and i thought you liked me back... turns out you never did though. i think. anyways skip a year bc that was filled with all kinds of emotions and now i’m back to “liking” my two past crushes that i literally loved so much in the past; you and z.
i’m starting to think you *might* like me, again, yes i know. but that’s the thing, it’s *again* and my brain doubts you like me back, and probably knows you only see me as a best friend, if i’m lucky, not even a sister i guess; or maybe, idk you’re confusing, and yet my heart wants to believe you secretly like me back.
i also think reason b; if above is considered a reason “a”; on why i “like you/fell for you again” is because of the AMOUNT OF CHILDREN IN THE SCHOOL WHO SHIP US. ( i can call them children now bc i’m one of the oldest in the school now ;yay; ). some grade 7’s ship us, a *butt ton* of grade 6’s ship us, a grade 5, or maybe more that i don’t know of, think we’re cute together, grade 4’s, i barely know them at *all*, but maybe, i don’t know, grade 3’s and 2’s, yeah they say “aww” sometimes, and grade 1’s, i’m not sure if they’re the same ones but like last year or so came up to me, they were like grade 1, 2, or kindergarten or so, and asked if we were dating.
this girl in grade 6 even told her classmate that “oH hO hO, x and (me) are dating!!”. even a while ago, this like grade 3 or 4 ( along with his two other friends ) were saying “oh are you two dating”, “aww you two would be a good couple!”, “perfect couple!”, and so on. EVEN one of our CLASSMATES always says “aww!” when he’s around us when we’re together. i mean, we’re together in a ton of projects atm.
anyways, this may sound like a rant, but,
actually it kind of is. but in a good way. i’m not hating on anyone, and actually i don’t mind being shipped. especially with u, x
i just don’t know, if i like you or not i aaaa
maybe???
i guess time will tell.
until then, thank you for being in my life
also, care more about your grades, you’re really smart and sooooo good at sports, and i admire you a little for that ability. but just please, i wish you cared more on your work. i also wish we stay in contact, even though last year our parents made plans for us to go to the same highschool, and you went with a and b. but it’s alright i guess, a is okay. b, i think dislikes me a lot. before it used to be reversed, wow.
okay, stay safe and thank you so much for helping me through my tough times
x
 

Zivaa

Honored RO Community Manager
x [irl]
ok so like everyone else is guilty, but you're completely innocent? it's easy for you to blame me or y for MY decision, but have you even thought about my reasons? oh yeah, sure you did, that's why you only talk shit. you make me sick.
you talk behind my back and make people think that i was wrong while you're the real problem here.
 

Omeiro

Honored RO Staff Member
x,

you've changed a lot and gave me lots of mixed feelings.. it took me 2 years to put it all together and realize that what you've said when we first talked came true; i could never truly get to know you like this. its time to let go. i'm still thankful for what you taught me; i get this strange feeling that i could never get pass through the admiration that i carry for you, although i don't mind it. i hope we'll get another chance to have a chat, i'd love to hear what you've been up to.
 
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Cyand

¡Ándale! ¡Ándale!
dear e,
you're meant to be my mum
mum's aren't supposed to push their children away,
or at least that's what i've been led to understand.
you don't directly push us either, you slowly do it until we snap and you then have a meaning to
comfort us - the idea of bragging to your friends about how you 'helped us through the hard times!!'
shut the fuck up
it makes me upset to say it, but if i'm being truthful, you're the root of my issues.
y o u.
you alone.
dad contributed, the inconsistency of our relationship put a strain on me as a kid, but he was never abusive.
he never hit me, he never screamed at me, never said he'd be better off w/o me as a kid.
i get i'm older now, and that i can't say i'm too young to deal with your constant abuse,
but no one can deal with it.
and it sucks, it fucking sucks, that i can't come to you with my depression, asking to simply vent to you without having the generic
'you have medication to deal with this.'
is it not too much to ask for you to fucking listen to my issues FOR ONCE in your fucking life? rather than dismiss them
you only help me for your own social benefit,
only to talk to your friends about how i moved back and you got me back.
you're derranged.
i don't want to be here. i never asked to move back, it wasn't my choice.
get off your high horse and realise that it's getting too much again.
please.
 

Jared

Cheesoholic
Dear x.
im sorry that it hurt you. I hurt myself through it. and I have regrets. but I most certainly, don’t regret meeting you, or our small simple journey. I feel upset I failed to actually make you feel special, loved and cared for. the feeling of failing you is terrible. I shouldn’t have made the decision I decided to make. maybe the pain will hopefully be temporary for me. but it sure does hurt me. a lot. I have a terrible dirty feeling. and it certainly feels like shit and my heart just really hurts the fact I did that.
 
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Leyddy

Shaman
dear x, I’m laughing at the fact that, damn I told u i love u and i fucking wish i never ever did because I wasted all of it on someone who wasn’t even worth my time
 

Rintea

EN Sentinel & Fashion Squad Director
Sentinel
Fashion Squad
_,
you don't care, you never did. you don't give a damn about me.
 

Cyand

¡Ándale! ¡Ándale!
dear ,
i'm so fucking sick of being people's second choice.
great, im your backup,
cool, you consider me to be reliable,
but can one person put me first?
i said this two years ago,
but i need to stop ALLOWING myself to fall second in people's lives,
i need to find someone i can rely on in that sense
because it sucks​
 

Rintea

EN Sentinel & Fashion Squad Director
Sentinel
Fashion Squad
_ & _,
just rub it in my face why don't ya.

+,
y'all are some copies. copying the way i type & the slang i use. i'm getting sick of it. stop.
 

+sapphire+

EN Mod, Sentinel Director & MapCrew
Moderator
Sentinel
Map Crew
Dear ___

I look at you and I cry. I know that I should stop talking to you, but I can't. My mind tells me to stop, but my heart says to keep on going. You make me feel guilty and I can't live with guilt because I know I did something wrong. Why you keep doing this to me? How did it turn this way? When you decided to turn your back on me, that's when everything went downhill between us. Can you just never return because I would be a happy person.




P.S-You stink at softball. I don't know how you're varsity :cautious::cautious:
 

Inky

Well-Known Mouse
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Kumoh

EN Sentinel, MapCrew Dir. FunCorp & Fashion Squad
Sentinel
Map Crew
FunCorp
Fashion Squad
Dear x,
What am I to you? Someone you go to when nobody else is there..? Am I only your “boredom option”?
 
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