dear r {irl}
I hate you, but ily at the same time. not in a romantic way.
we fight all the time. youre toxic and not good for me, so why do i
always wake up the next day checking my phone for messages from you?
im tired of crying because of how much you hurt me. im tired of moving on the
next day like nothing happened. im tired of you starting things and never apologizing,
but i love you too much. we talk constantly and we share the same interests. you make me
laugh, and you introduced me to so many of the things i love to this day. i dont know how to move
on from you, even though i know it will only do me good. every time i try to end it, i keep making up excuses
for myself to keep talking to you. even my family thinks you're a bad influence. i dont know what to do. you so easily
can just call me annoying and talk shit about me, and call me dramatic when my feelings are hurt. i wish i knew how to move on,
but i need you.