I want to help, and I'm trying to help. But my own problems interfere. I push my own problems aside, wishing there gone, wishing I never had them. I'll try my best to help, but I don't know how long I can last.
Well, I have absolutely no idea what to begin with.
Ever since this happened, I just can't really feel the old myself. Everything I could feel, in one moment just like this, dissapeared. This was the first night I've ever cried. Cried over what just happened, coming back to what we did together in the past. Crying over all the photos of us both. And I feel so tired now, like a zombie.
When I woke up, I checked my phone, looking for anything that might make me smile in the morning, like you always did. But there wasn't. I just got swarmed with DMs from players needing something from me in the game. Just like everyday. But without you, it's.. It's just feeling as if I'm treated like a machine.
Because of what happened, I just don't feel human anymore. All I have in my mind is the "081 - The Ending" I was listening to the day before all this. That song name though. Ironic, huh.
I also want to let you know. I'm really sorry if I didn't meet your expectations. I just want to tell you I did my best so I could make that one text, saying that I care about you, regardless of what is happening here with me. And you already know how tough is in my place.
That's so impressive. For over 8 months, you used to make me smile everytime I saw you texting me. Now, just thinking about you or anything related to makes me sad, losing all the positive aura I have accumulated for the rest of the day. I've just become a depressive piece of damn. I still care though. I still.. And I don't know why.
Dear x (irl),
Why were you even placed in the yearbook when you almost never even attended? All that was shown was a blank image and the quote 'Good bye and good luck', one of the defaults the school added to students who didn't add in their comments. You're a forgotten face to me, having to see it again makes me so agitated about my past mistake.
A few person,
Tell me.What is the problem?Why don't your critics keep silent every day?I have always been loyal to criticism.But criticism and breaking words are different things.You made breaking words.You all did!-A few person-But I made a decision.Sometimes I have places I can't will do but I will!Do you know what I understood when I left that girl?No matter how much she/he have in your life,no one who harms you isn't indispensable anymore.If you want, you say 'I can't will do without it.'But no!You just need a little bit of brave to get out of every person that damages you.Now get ready to get out of the walls.
-The message isn't about everyone in my life.-
Dear _, irl
I know you’re so stressed and angry,
But you need to let things flow out of your head, just scream, hit your pillow, trust me you’ll be okay. Don’t overthink things so fast now, I know you’re a happy person. Show me how happy you’re.
Ok, so I'm stupid just because I defented my friend because you insulted her because she liked onions. Okay then. So now I'm the bad one? Okay, that's good too. I don't need your fake ass in my life. That's a lesson to never fucking trust most people. So I'll never trust you. Thank you for making me realize you and your friends are the most fake piece of craps. Now, don't ever talk to me again. Not even ''Hello''.
ive always lived by the rule of leave people before they leave you and i never believe people when they say they wont leave me but with you, im too scared to leave. Because if i do leave you ill have nothing to live for anymore ive completely given up on everything else and people are starting to notice