dear d(irl)
Why is it that you only see things from your perspective? Why do you want me to be here all the fucking time? You used to tell me to go out and be social, and now I fucking am, and suddenly you change your mind? Ok sure you care about me and want me to be safe or whatever, and I get that, but when will I get to have fun? Tonight was ruined because all I could think about is what time it was. I’ve spent this afternoon stressing instead of having fun, and you know what? If you’re telling me I should go to sleep earlier because I have to wake up early,,, I will legit lose my shit. I don’t care about my sleeping schedule. Just as long as I fall asleep at one point I’m fine. Every fucking time I protect myself in any arguments we have, you always start your damn sentences with “what if” there is no “what if” if something happens to me it’s not your fault so why are you making such a big deal? What the fuck have I done to you for you to not trust me? Huh? I’ve literally helped and cared for you ever since I was 11. And it fucking sucks how I can’t get anything nice back, even when I keep fucking helping you.