dear dad
i really miss you and i really need you right now. but i cant see u this week. dear p
i dont..
i dont get it.
why do you hate me so much?
i just want to know if you're okay.
im sorry.
i really do care about you, but i guess i see how it is? dear g, (irl)
im sorry for ignoring you for the past 2 days once i get home,
i know i talk to you at school but i just hate getting on discord after school.
everything just hurts.
im sure you know how i feel, since you tell me you "feel worse than i do" everyday. dear a (irl)
thank you for making me laugh every day for the past year. u may be a complete piece of shit but at least its in a good/funny way?? its nice to know that you care...sometimes. when you do tell me you care it hurts.. dear other a, (irl)
thanks for buying me food at lunch. it means a lot??? how you waste your money on someone as fucking worthless as me
i really hate it when you do it though.
i dont want to eat anymore.
dear basically everyone i guess?...mostly.
i hate it when people tell me that they care?? it hurts,, in a way.
i know im not going to last much longer. everything is going so badly for me. i dont think anything can fix how i've felt recently.
i just cant deal with much nowadays. i don't even feel like getting out of bed in the morning...or in the afternoon...or at night. i just want to sleep every day. nothing more, nothing less.
the thing is, there's nothing to look forward to for me anymore. i have lost all love for a lot of things i liked to do. not many things really peak my interest anymore.
i mean, i dont even like going on the forums, either.
i dont like talking to anyone. i dont want anyone to take it personally,, but i just?? it drains my energy. even talking online drains me.
and then i sleep.
but honestly i dont think i'll be posting on the forums at all anymore? maybe ocassionally??
x,
its funny how people fight over the dumbest things, with pointless arguments and un-needed drama coming along with it. when really it was all caused just by a misunderstanding.
this happened to us. but im glad we both finally saw our mistakes. and im glad that we are friends again. i hope we can prevent it from happening again in the future.
Excuse me, probably I have been a bit selfish on having finished this only for a stupidity, probably think that I do not love you, but I it do and much, but that if it was continuing with esl you were going to suffer many mas of what suffering these now.
This site uses cookies to help personalise content, tailor your experience and to keep you logged in if you register.
By continuing to use this site, you are consenting to our use of cookies.