dear p,
you're treating me like i don't exist.
you're constantly ignoring me.
its so, so difficult to find the effort to even try and talk to you. i always get so upset when trying to say anything to you at all.
yet i ALWAYS hurt myself by doing so anyways.
because i know that, even before i send you a message, i know you're just going to delete it (and if you can't delete it, you'll just ignore it altogether) once you notice it's from me.
i dont even know what i did to you, either.
out of nowhere, or at least what i can see, you just woke up one day and decided to hate me?? i dont get it. i just want to know why?? but i dont think im EVER going to get anything out of you and you're just going to leave me wondering what the fuck i did??