Dear M (name)
When you said "you meant well" what do you mean? I'm stuck knowing if you want to leave me or not just the way you said it. Did I do something wrong again, like always? I can never make anyone happy I can't even keep myself happy. I'm always sad and hiding it pretending to be, why do we have to be like this? We can never express our real feelings whether it's being sad or what. We just think you need to be happy all the time so we fake feelings to the point I think just hurts non stop. Don't leave me I'm sitting here listening to "human music" on repeat having thoughts wanting to cry about everything that's happened from me trying to kms, being hurt by people that I thought cared, ruining my relationships and regretting, missing people and just being used. The people I really care about just want to leave me or act like strangers to me but don't know I actually care. That's funny, please don't leave me I don't want to cry for so long. You're amazing and all i want is to help you. If you need to talk to me then you can, I'll be sitting in my room crying my eyes out probably to sleep again for the third time today who knows. Tell me, what did you mean? I don't want random thoughts taking over my hurting head, no.