Dear J,
I just wanted you to be happy and have a good part in your life, but I'm worried on what day you'll eventually give out on me.
Please don't I just want to be there to fix you even though I might be hurt, I'm sorry about everything that is happening and I'm stuck in it too. I also regret ever letting you go because it's harder for me to get you back.
But that's okay do what a want and hopefully youll be happy again. I dont mean to annoy you if i ever do and im glad you appreciate the thihgs ive done for you. You dont know how happy I am to be your friend and how happy it makes when you message me. Hahaha, I like to make you smile, btw I'm more beautiful than you. I'm jk I'm really ugly but you are very cute and I wanna play with your hair sorry.
I think you're absolutely amazing, funny, caring, helpful, beautiful little bean I've seen and I'm so glad I met yoy. I just dont want anything to ruin our friendship or your friendship with C. If you need time off again take as much as you need, I understand you're suffering from what's being thrown at you right now, it also makes me upset too I do feel bad this is happening to you, and you're saying all this stuff about you that isnt true.
Not to me not to C or anyone who appreciates you and cares about you. Trying not to drop a tear writing this but I'm scared if you see this. I'm so sorry I love you..