x, (irl)
i don't have enough words to describe how i feel after what you've done to me and her. i'm still not sure whether you've broken up, though i knew this was coming and warned her about you, yet she kept believing in your inexistent love. all of us told her about our opinion on you and how dumb it is to cope with such a thing as you are, it didn't make anything better; in fact, she seemed rather brainwashed, loyal only to you, ignoring her friends.
i'll be honest though, i hate both you and her. her, for letting you get to her even though she knew i had feelings for you, which was very unprincipled of her. and you, for treating me inhumanely for something i didn't have power over. that's ridiculous and no one should ever go through stuff like that. you and your friends do have every disgusting reason to hate yourselves. it's still awful that there's no humanity in any one of you to stop for a second and question how could i be possibly feeling after all of you made fun of me over the phone because i have feelings for a guy. after you threatened me for those feelings.
i remember i told everyone, including you, that i do rely on my perception and instincts very much and they're as true as divine inspirations. i believe you do too, as you went insane when i said "i think you're different [than the others], which is a good thing actually since difference can be for the good as well." you misunderstood the whole meaning of that 940-word confession text in which i put my heart. i was a hundred percent honest with everything i wrote in it. yes, i thought you liked me. yes, i said i knew how you've been feeling because it's obvious. yeah, i said it.
although i was honest with every good word i wasted on you, i take them back. all of them.
if you come back to me after everything, i won't be there for you because you have already lost me.
____________________________________________________________________________
dear x, (irl)
i still have sympathy for your stupidity because you were way too blinded to see some things. but neither of these will help you get my friendship back as you're such an awful person as they said before. i wish i had believed and cut off communication with you earlier. i knew you were going to break up even before the semester holiday because he's a shithead. you chose this and now you're alone with it. i'm no more going to be there for you because you, apparently, was flirting with him when you knew i loved him and in fact i had been feeling suicidal for a very long time because of his actions. fucking liar. i have neither liars nor hypocrites any more in my life. farewell.