dear a.m.
your eyes are losing their colour.
you’re suddenly not my fantasy girl anymore.
dear a (irl )
oh my god. i never thought this would’ve happened to you, out of all people. i know you’ll never see this, but this will relieve me since i’m too shy to speak out about it.
i miss you so much. i wish we could’ve had a better relationship before that boy stole your life.
my heart is genuinely shattered, and i don’t know what i should do anymore to be honest. i broke down 3 times in the time span of 4 hours. i love you so much oh my god. i was already numb, but now i’m really out there. i can’t concentrate, i can’t help but ramble. i can’t help you, i can’t help anyone, i can’t help myself.
i’m sorry i let you down, and that i shed so many tears.
if you were here, you would’ve hit me and told me to stop because i deserve better.
i love you so fucking much,
p.s. i knew your favorite color is pink.
i can’t even think about going to your funeral.
but i will see you one last time.
rest well, angel .
sunday, december 17th.