dear m (irl),
remember what you told me in the car?
i hide *it from you but what you said and what you meant,
actually really hurt me.
how you compared me to a fucking bratty 3 year old, accused me of lying to you, telling me to stop bargaining when i really didnt want to go anywhere else with you,
i wanted to jump out the car afterwards..
you really hurt me that day, and the only reason i act out is not because im getting older,
is because i want to see you proud of me.
i've always expected the worse when it comes to going places i,
i really dont know how to react
and you still think im straight, because i could never tell you in person
because im scared of you
why cant we have a better relationship??
i've been really hurt, but A has really made me feel a whole better
haha
i dont wanna cry
because i cant
i've wasted my tears
what happened?
you pulled me out of school for homeschooling, thats what
and you cant mend countless broken wounds at once.
im sorry for being such a horrible daughter
i wish you could trust me