Saddest thing that's ever happend to you?

Stoop

Shaman
my grandma (well, one of them lmao) had a speech impediment. she was in a car crash that left her with brain damage, so she had problems with expressing what she wanted to express. she lived with my grandpa who lived a few miles away from our house, which was in the middle of nowhere (aka lodi). she died a few years back;

one day, my uncle told us that one time, when my siblings and i were younger, she went missing. the cops were called and everything. five whole hours of her missing, and the sun was starting to set. my uncle walked a long way out to the chicken coop and found her crying. my uncle sat down with her and asked what happened. apparently she walked miles from her house to ours because she missed us but couldnt tell my grandpa that she wanted to meet us.

it was hard communicating with my grandma, not only did she have a speaking problem but she also spoke a different language than me. id also have nightmares of her idk why lmao. so that ultimately made my relationship with her while she lived not that strong. but for some reason, despite our obstacles, she would always ask how i was doing. it made me a bit frustrated, why would she ask that if she couldnt even understand me? it was after her death that i realized that she only asked because she wanted to hear my voice, wanted my presence, and wanted me to know that she loved me.
 

Pengy

Pingless
- my 1st dog died on valentine's day due to old age
- I didn't get to see my grandpa for the last time before he died when I was younger
 

+sapphire+

EN Mod, Sentinel Director & MapCrew
Moderator
Sentinel
Map Crew
When someone is not willing to make a relationship between you and them work, but once it's broken off and you see the other person putting their full efforts to make a relationship work....that hurts.
 

Blade+

Shaman
feeling useless
feeling the holes ( not all the way through to the outside skin on my cheek ) in my mouth where i've ripped off the skin due to anxiety
putting my hand on one of my pet rats and he was freezing cold, realizing he was dead
 
beign born
 

Sweetbuns

MAH CHEESE!
when I died in bootcamp
 

Sweetbuns

MAH CHEESE!
When my dog died and when I did anesthesia
 

Ukemochi

Active Mouse
that one time my dog was suffering from bone cancer and had to be put down and also when my i found out that other doggo, who always would greet me when i came back from school, had been killed by some other big dog from my neighboorhood
 

Amoret

Well-Known Mouse
When I finally realized what he did to me wasn't "okay" or "normal" or "brotherly love"
 

Rintea

EN Sentinel & Fashion Squad Director
Sentinel
Fashion Squad
a lot of things but similarly to what grossly said above^
when i realized that what they did to me/tried to do wasn't okay, and they were using me all along
 
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