School was embarrassing and horrible. On Monday (2/4/2019), second period, I was asked out by my friend (Now ex-friend) and I ended up crying because I was scared to tell him I didn't like him back. My other friends and the guy who asked me out thought I was crying with joy/happiness, but I told my friends (not the guy) I was crying because I was so scared to tell him no. So I told the guy I would think about it later on, and then in fourth period, I texted him and told him to meet me by the bathroom. I gave him my answer, and it was the truth. I anxiously told him no and told him I only saw him as a friend, but he didn't it take it nicely. He ignored me and wouldn't text me when I tried to text him my apologies. It was really immature, and I kind of knew this was gonna happen since he's pretty emotional. We've been friends for four years, and it honestly breaks my heart to know that my best friend is ignoring me because of some stupid ass rejection. I've been trying to reach out to him but he won't even speak to me every time I try to tell him I don't feel the same way and that I was sorry.
In short words, school went from my future to my biggest fears.