Well, there was this crush I had not so long ago
I could write a book on him and anytime and I mean even if I heard his name I’d get butterflies, stomach twist, giggles, and blushed face. One day he found out I liked him and didn’t say anything, I felt so carried away and I loved him yes I know that’s a strong word but I did
He broke my heart and shattered me into millions maybe billions he made me give up on love completely basically
I cut my wrist, arms, thighs, ankles, stomach. I even tried to cut my veins and I had to talk to counselors and everyone and I was hurting so much more hen I even imagined was possible. For weeks and maybe months I cried myself to sleep at night over him. He friendzoned me and said he loved me so much in a best friend way and I still talk to him up to this day. If he’s happy and there’s nothing changing that, everyone swears he likes me because he’s always asking where I am and texts me first and pulls out cute emojis and stuff and messes with me a lot. But I still love him and have tried to self harm a few more times but I’ve gotten stopped I even tried to kill my self but what can I do? Love hurts me and should I just give up? Wait until I find my soulmate? The right one? Or maybe actually go kill myself over a boy and get called an attention seeker.
I wouldn’t know
I don’t know
I won’t know so what can you do? My screams feel so silent over him and I just want to give up and I know that’s sad over a boy but god does it hurt so bad. Any ideas?