i was told if you write about how you feel that it makes your issues easier to handle so uh this is just gonna be a vent post i guess
in my irl friend group im basically the mom, i look over everyone and check up, make sure everyone is doing good if they need some of my lunch, etc.
but i end up forgetting how i'm feeling, i bottle up everything because i need to be there for them before me. i feel terrible when i cant be there for them. and because of covid i feel like i just don't have a purpose anymore if that makes sense ( not is a self harm or sui way, dw i'm doing alr in that department <3 )
but idk it just hurts to feel like this.